Let's just be

Let's just Be for a moment, let's just be.
Let's just sit for a moment, let's just sit and Be.
Let's just listen for a moment, let's just listen and Be.
Let's just hold each other for a moment, and Let's just Be. <3 span="">

You are Loved, and you are not alone! <3 span="">

What matters to Him is Love

I've been thinking and praying about this and really my thoughts don't matter, but I feel I need to say something from my heart.....

I believe God loves us so much. The VERY FIRST thing He ever did was love us SO much. It wasn't because of what happened in the Garden of Eden that He all of a sudden decided to put conditions on His love. No, He continued to love us so much. As a matter of fact way back before the fall of Lucifer, He could see the future, and creation and fall of the human race. He knew way ahead of time how this was all going to play out, and even then He loved us so much.

My question is this... When we stand before our God and He is looking deep into our soul and heart, in that moment what would you like Him to say? Well done my good and faithful servant, Because You Loved well? Or well done my good and faithful servant because you held on and persisted? I think Sometimes we hold on so tight to something and other people look at us and say I don't want to have any thing to do with that. Love attracts, fear separates.

Picture yourself standing before God. What do you think is going to matter to Him? I think, since the very first thing He did was to love, even before we came into existence, and all throughout our existence, He continues to love. I think since it was in the beginning, that is what matters to Him. LOVE

There's absolutely no way that any of us in our human state can ever "get there". That's what His Grace is all about. Not to allow us to continue to sin, but to help us recognize that no matter what, there's absolutely nothing that we can do in our own power to "get us there". It's already been done, it was done on the cross, and it was done because of Love.

What exactly is it that is causing the conflict? What others might think of us if we just decide to leave it in God's hands? How we ourselves might feel about letting it go and leaving it in God's hands? What God might think of us? He loves us. We need to honestly take a look at ourselves to find out exactly what it is.

Close your eyes and picture yourself standing before God, what is He going to say to you?
(Editing this part as a post shower thought ;) )
What if He doesn't say anything to you at all? What if all He does is pull you into Himself so you can feel ALL the love He has had for you from the beginning of time to infinity and beyond? I think what He wants us to know is, what matters to Him is LOVE. <3 span="">

Walking in the park

So today as I was walking in the park, there was kind of a dark woodsy area I happened upon. I noticed one area that had shadows, and twisted branches, and wet leaves all over the ground and it just reminded me of the struggles that we are sometimes overcome with from the circumstances in our lives. As I continued on I stopped at this one area, took a picture, as my focus was on the mess.

The interesting thing is that within minutes my focus begin to change. Instead of seeing messy darkness, I started to see sunlight coming through the trees making patches of light all over the leaves on the ground. I heard a couple of birds chirping that must have been hiding in the trees. And then the most interesting thing that I noticed that was barely visible and I questioned if it was actually my imagination or if it was truly real, so I took a picture, and in the midst of that dark woodsy area where my focus had changed was the shape of a heart.

There are all kinds of circumstances that feel like dark woodsy areas in our lives. We are consumed and that becomes our focus. Sometimes if we can find a little bit of sunshine even in those circumstances, we may just be able to find a heart in the messy darkness. Find something to be grateful for in the midst of all the mess. It may help change your focus even if just for a little while. <3 span="">

One rung at a time

Remember the first time we tried the monkey bars as a kid? We'd climbed up the ladder and hang there on that first wrung looking at the next bar willing ourselves to move. Sometimes we would gather some momentum by swinging a bit thinking if we could just get far enough we could grab on the next and move forward. Sometimes we would get stuck in the middle holding onto both bars, and then fall to the ground as our fingers slipped.

Did we give up? No, We would climb the ladder again with more determination this time and we'd do it over and over getting blisters and callouses until we we're able to go all the way across. As a kid first starting out it looked impossible but we did it, with determination and persistence.

When our kids first came out to us, its like we were looking at those monkey bars. Impossible to get to the across other side. We take steps up the ladder and grab on to that first wrung. Getting through the initial shock and remembering to breathe. We hang there for a while trying to focus on moving to the next step. It takes some time as we work up the momentum (praying and learning, steadily loving our kid) swinging a bit and grabbing on to the next bar, hanging in the middle, only to have our fingers slip...(one day feeling ok, the next not so much...)

What do we do? We climb the ladder again with more determination this time and we do it over and over until we get all the way across. As a kid it looked impossible. As an adult getting to the other side of loving, accepting, and affirming, may feel impossible But with reading, research, prayer, persistence, and time (yes time) it gets easier and eventually we find ourselves there on the other side. When we look down at our hands those blisters and callouses are a reminder of how much we Love our kids. <3 span="">

It's not impossible... Remember, keep trying one wrung at a time <3 span="">

Just a thought

We said we'd meet at 2pm

It had been a while but she answered my call. We said we'd meet at two at that little place. As I walked in and looked around I asked the hostess if it was okay to take the table over in the corner by the window. I followed her and then took a seat. This was a nice quiet spot for my much prayed about meeting.

It wasn't five minutes until I saw her come through the door and the hostess walked her over to our table where she sat down. We both ordered just a coffee and smiled as if we had done this before.

We talked about our work, and a class she was taking, our schedules our husbands....Then before we knew it it was time to go. As we waited for the bill I reached cross the table and took her hand. I wanted her to know that I appreciated her coming. I was glad I'd reached out, it had just been too long. As she looked out the window and then back at me with tears in her eyes she said "I'm so sorry". And as we walked out to our cars she explained to me that my phone call asking to meet had caught her off guard. She wondered how someone who's family had been rejected, who's kids we're condemned, could reach out with a heart full of forgiveness and love? Only Jesus could understand that. Only Jesus could DO that. Only Jesus could Love like that...

Last night I got a call from my friend. We said we'd meet at two at that little place....