Something to think about

A few weeks ago I was talking with God and asked Him to grow me. I don't want to stay where I am. I want to grow in depth in my relationships with others' and my relationship with Him.

Well, be careful what you ask for because He will answer when it comes to things like this!

So He provided a couple of opportunities to allow this to happen. I didn't recognize it as that at first and wanted to BOLT! I wasn't getting my way, I got my feelings hurt, I pouted a bit, my pride....well let's just say recognize the word humbling?

Interestingly enough all those things I was feeling were all about me. Self. And once you can't see anything else except self, there is no way to grow. It's all a self centered egotistical (not in a good way) focus on me.

Oh, I was praying. I was praying that God would show people the error of their ways. I felt justified in how I was feeling because after all I was right. Right? Then God reminded me of my prayer a few weeks ago. And He wanted to know if I really wanted to grow. If I was willing to give up these self centered thoughts and allow Him to do what I asked Him to do
Hmmmmmm.....Did I? For me that meant swallowing my pride, giving up my hurt, stopping the temper tantrum and trusting that He was trying to do exactly what I had asked Him to do.

I had to think about that for a bit. It's easy to ask God to do something, but not always easy to turn things over and allow Him to do it. Giving it up. That's part of growing. Sometimes it hurts. But what growing pains don't?

Something to think about...